In other words, it's good for us. Difficult, but good.
I still believe it is...deep down in my inner self.
And as much as I believe it to be so, I fail at change when it involves me having to let go of things...well, family, to be more exact. I fear it. It is my form of hypocrisy.
I can say it all in my head and know it to be true that letting go of children is how life is supposed to be...until I have to do the actual severing.
Is it just moms who find this difficult? I don't know. Perhaps our nurturing side gets in the way of allowing things to become what they were meant to be.
In my life, I have lost people very dear to me...parents, grandparents, a sibling, close friends, in-laws and cousins...to death.
But the letting go of our children, even thought they're all grown up, has been a more difficult thing for me, for various and probably unwarranted reasons.
Having said all of this, however, I'm beginning to realize, finally, the importance of contemplative prayer in my life. I'm realizing that letting go of everything...thoughts, ideas, notions, experiences (past and present), children...everything...and letting God have that space within, is what is needed for me to be truly free and to embrace change without fear. It will also allow ME to become who God desires me to be.
Letting go....
Free falling.....
As frightening as it is, I know it's my next step in life.
